I am worried that after the baby is born that i will resort back to my old ways. I've gained all this weight and part of me is happy because i know i look healthy. But, there's the other part that says...((You are fat now and you need to lose that weight quickly)) What if i can't lose the weight? What if it becomes an obsession again? I already can't stop obsessing, its a habit, its an addiction. My addiction is to be obsessed.

7:36 p.m. - 2006-03-20