Friends are for keeps

Friends are bullshit, you never really have a friend. All you have is family. Friends will always betray each other, stab the knife and twist it in your heart.Talk behind your back, try to be better than you, and sometimes they will learn to resent you because they cant be better than you. I used to call all types of people my friends, the ones that served up the drugs or alcohol i needed, the ones who would beat up anyone i told them to, the people that told me they loved me and were always saying how beautiful i was.The people who i would have loved to be like, the people who would have loved to be like me.I didnt use the word friend in a responsible way and i have learned from my mistakes. Now instead of calling you my friend just because you say you are, you're going to have to earn it. You will not have my respect when i first meet you, you will have to earn it. Sometimes i think that enemies are more your friends than your actual friends are. At least they dont hide behind the wall of friendship, they are upfront. If they hate you, they tell you. No ifs, ands, or buts about it. I like that. I like my enemies, no matter how crazy it seems i do.So if i call you my friend know that you have earned it and be happy, because when you become my friend i will be loyal and protect you to the end. I will be there to lend a hand, i will be that shoulder you can come to cry on. I will laugh with you but never at you with malicious intent. I will love you truly.

5:03 p.m. - 2003-01-13