I am just me

I lay at your feet and try to give you everything of me, but sometimes i push myself to hard and too far and i just break. I shutdown. I go into myself. I cant make you do what i want to do and when i feel you resisting i just say stay. Just stay, because i dont want to push you into following me and have you resent me for it. I dont hate Calgary, its just not home and it never could be. No, i dont like hanging out with A., hes ignorant, and arrogant and i dont think he has any respect for anybody except himself. Not my type of person. I know hes your cousin and best friend but we just have different tastes in people. I cant prevent that and i'm not going to pretend to make it all seem perfect because its not perfect to me. Its something that i dont know what to do with, its something that was thrown at me and being stunned i decided to accept it. But i'm getting sick and i'm tired and the only time i am happy is when i'm just lying there in your arms with no interruptions.

virtue

virtue is relative at best

there's nothing worse than a sunset

when you're driving due west

and i'm afraid that my love

is gonna come up short

there is no there there

i guess i'm scared

cuz i want to have good news to report

every time i come up for air

now i'm cruising through a chromakey blue sky

and i know that in an hour or three

the sun is gonna be in my eyes

and i know that sometimes all i can see

is how i feel

like the whole world is on the other side of a dirty windshield

and i'm tryin to see through the glare

yes i'm struggling just to see what's there

the one person who really knows me best

says i'm like a cat

yeah the kind of cat that you just can't pick up

and throw into your lap

no, the kind that doesn't mind being held

only when its her idea

yeah, the kind that feels what she decides to feel

when she is good and ready to feel it

and now i am prowling through the backyard

and i am hiding under the car

i have gotten out of everything

i've gotten into so far

i eat when I am hungry

and i travel alone

and just outside the glow of the house

is where i feel most at home

but in the window you sometimes appear

and your music is faint in my ears

5:35 p.m. - 2003-10-15