I'm not afraid of the price i pay

"Come Dig Me Out"

They wanted me

To be the dream

But my mood went south

And I'm stuck on the couch with bad jeans

And the couch sucks me down to the floor

And the floor sucks me down to the earth

And I'm covered and buried before

My heart had a chance to start working

Hey, it's heavy underground

I'm screaming for attention

So come dig me out

Hey somebody can you hear me now

'Cause my world is caving in

so come dig me out

It's raining again

And who've guessed

No one's come along to tell me I'm a mess

And the bed sucks me down to the floor

And the floor sucks me down through the earth

And I'm covered and buried before

My head had a chance to stop hurting

Hey, it's heavy underground

I'm screaming for attention

So come dig me out

Hey somebody can you hear me now

'Cause my world is caving in

so come dig me out

I never thought I could fall ten feet under

I always thought someone would remember

To look for me

Before I reach the end

Hey somebody can you hear me now

'Cause my world is caving in

so come dig me out

I can lie...I can say i'm alright. I can say you dont bother me when you really do. I can say that i'm happy...but its all a lie. I can talk about moving out in a few months and having kids and raising a family and getting married to you. But sometimes i dont believe myself. I wonder if i'll make it that far, i wonder if i'm strong enough.Dont worry i wont say the big bad word...the one that starts with an s and ends with death, no lets not talk about that. I'll let it run through my head time and time again but i wont speak of it. Its killing me slowly though, i dont know what to do. I think about it all the time. Would everyone be better off without me? Would i be better off if i did it? Would you cry for me? Would you dream of me?

9:23 p.m. - 2002-12-11