Rest in peace love

Teardrops drift gently along my cheeks

Like the snow that fell upon my skin.

I saw your grave today and wanted to climb right in.I remember your beautiful voice and the last words you spoke to me and the words in your last note that made my heart weep. I remember your hugs and kisses from so long ago. It seems like eons have passed though its only been months.I thought i would be okay and i dared myself not to cry...you told me that i could cry but not for you. I'm sorry but i cried for you...i didnt know what else to do.I lost the bet and i went against you. I wanted to bury myself in the snow just so i could feel close to you, let it cover me whole and take me deep inside. Instead i got into my moms car and let memories of you flood through my mind.The good times, the bad times. The way we changed but still remained friends. I never would have given you up...I wasnt there to help you and i dont know if i could have. You wanted to leave, like so many of us do...and maybe you are happier now. I hope so.I really do. I love you R, like i said to you many times before. Forever and Always.

10:37 p.m. - 2003-01-20