Sorrow...take me now

SORROW IS HER NAME

I am so tired, please just take me away

just let me lay down here for awhile, again

open my eyes to the bright morning sun

hopelessly stare, she is with me again

why does she come and why does she care so much for me?

she reaches out to me, she whispers so sweetly

"come to me, be with me, sink with me, die with me"

sorrow is her name and she's mine

her hands reach out to me, her words bore deep in me

"I'm so alone, please won't you come and be with me"

sorrow is her name and she's mine, and i...

breath in this air, so humid and dark

this desert takes me in again and again

reach out my hands to the dark desert sky

fall to my knees she is with me again

and then for awhile her nighttime prevails in me again

she grips and pulls at me, she sinks her teeth in me

"you're not alone as long as you sink deep with me"

sorrow is her name and she's mine

naked in front of me, lust gets the best of me

"loneliness adds to our beauty and our decay"

sorrow is her name and she's mine, and she is mine

the top of the world is so endless and stark

there's ice in my eyes and ice in my heart

the desert slow fades into cold, restless days for awhile in me

the summer seems long on this hot humid day

salvation tonight if she fades in the rain

but tonight I will stay as she creeps in the rain

and seeps through me

she sinks her tongue in me, "I will not ever leave"

she sings a song that's so sweet (but in disarray)

sorrow is her name and she's mine

"slip through this open door, come in and never leave"

she smiles for me and says "I'm all you'll ever need"

sorrow is her name and she's mine, and she is mine

****could i be hers?****

Why do i always have to say such stupid things???? Why do i have to say that love is useless to the only person i love? I dont think i even believe half the shit i say but i say it anyways. Fuck you old me...fuck you for having to try and come back, fuck you for trying to take S from me, fuck you for trying to ruin one of the only good things in my life. I wish you would just die.

12:21 a.m. - 2003-01-16