this little smile is my all purpose expression, the meaning of which i'll leave to your discretion

handsome musician

he was a handsome musician

but he had an ugly scar

you could not see it on him

but you could hear it when he played guitar

naked and nervous silence

therefore conversation to abuse

stood between us like a parent

like a game we had to lose

he kept an eye on the door

and his back to the wall

his walk told of the time it takes for a man to fall

and i welcomed him into my closet

to meet the skeletons living there

in my twilight vacancy

i didn't care

we knew each other namelessly

as the rhythm came of age

he knew me like a blue note

and the lights went down on stage

he was a handsome musician

but he had an ugly scar

you could not see it on him

but you could hear it when he played guitar

i welcomed him into my closet

to meet the skeletons living there

in my twilight vacancy

i didn't care

he was a handsome musician

but he had an ugly scar

you could not see it on him

but you could hear it when he played guitar

S. passed his GED and i have never been more proud of him when i saw the certificate with his name on it. Hes doing so good for himself now and its a distant cry from what he was doing before. I would have loved him either way but i am definitely happy for him.

This weekend S. and I did something that i told myself i would never do. I opened up to him more than any other person...and i liked it. I guess hes made me more open minded to new ideas. I realized this weekend that i trust him with my everything...and i've never had that with anyone before.

My manager told me today that i almost made employee of the month this month, but since i had only been there a month they had to give it to someone else. I'll make it next month though, i cant wait until i'm 18. Thats when i can become a server. I know it sounds like a piss poor thing to look forward to but i do only have my grade 9 education and i will need a job if i intend to get my GED and go to University, plus i feel like i'm in my element when i'm interacting with people on that basis.

*Your love has got me twisted*

1:11 a.m. - 2003-06-04