You like them big, i got a gmc. You like them little, i got a mini pickle

I think she leaves me here by myself because if she stayed she would end up beating the hell out of me.This is my mom we're talking about the one who is supposed to love their kid no matter what but my family is fucked up as you all know. Oh well, i like being by myself anyways. If only i had smokes...or maybe some vodka to help pass the time. I dont though so i'll sit and pass the time by listening to music and thinking about all the things i do wrong. How lovely.

My ex , Andy is moving back here. I'm looking for houses for him to move into here and he's selling his house where he is now. I have to look for a 4 bedroom house because i'll be moving in with him also, that is when i turn 16.Hopefully Diane will come with me also.

I made a new friend. Her name is Jana and she is like an older version of me. Its quite amazing that i keep meeting people that are so like me when i thought no one else could be like me. Then theres my friend Mike and i told him that i havent had sex since January and he says " You better get your pretty little ass over here!" lol, i have the greatest friends.

My friend thinks i might be pregnant. She wants me to go get a test and i told Andy and he agrees with her. If i am and i didnt know it all along it means the father of the baby is Texas. Last i heard he was in jail so i better not be pregnant because i'm not the greatest mother figure right now and Texas is definitely not the greatest father figure. Hes a meth addict for heavens sakes. Although if i'm not i'd be just as disappointed because i long to have a baby to take care of.

Why is it that so many people get surprised when a girl says that she gets herself off? Tons of guys do it all the time and its no surprise when they say they do.Yet when a girl mentions that she does its like, " Oh My!!" Yes indeed i do get myself off, its a natural freaking thing and i seem to be able to do it a lot better than some of the guys i know, lol. Another thing i dont get, why do guys get turned on when a girl talks about getting herself off? I was telling mike that i was getting myself off yesterday and i gave myself 3 orgasms and he says you are getting me hard by saying stuff like that, lol. *sheesh* People are strange.

7:08 p.m. - 2002-06-25