So i tell myself i'm happy today but then it just doesnt seem to work.*sighs* I tried...nobody can say i didnt. Its just...life is so...no not life...LOVE...its so damn complicated and i suppose i'm better off without it but its got me enveloped. I guess i like the misery. I can't get M. off my mind and i cant talk to anybody except for S. about it, cause shes the only one that understands even though shes never been in love before, but she honestly does help.He's younger than me and S. says that doesnt matter but when i think about it i know that hes not gonna feel the same way later on...then theres me on the other hand who would love to just settle down with one person but cant because I AM AFRAID OF REJECTION, yes me...the one that people make fun of because i always end up picking up guys, I am indeed afraid of rejection. I suppose in a way thats why i dont know what to do about M..*sighs*
R. wants to get married to me, lol...i said yes. I cant wait till i'm 16 we're moving into an apartment together, which will totally kick ass since we're best friends.
Um...yes i'm leaving now...bye bye
10:14 p.m. - 2002-03-15
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