I used to be a bad girl

Sitting here with a household of stoned guys. Listening to Pink Floyd and drowning out their laughs. *sighs* How fun life can be. I must have looked like such a fool when i was stoned, because now i notice how people act and i despise it. I dont see the point in being high anymore. When i used, I just wanted to float away...and thats what it felt like. I left the world behind. Now all i do is drown it out. This saves the embarrassment of looking like a fool, it may seem like i'm a bit out of it but i'm not. I'm here but i'm on a different level than others around me most of the time. I'm not saying that i am above people. Dont get me wrong...I just dont see things the way other people see them. My brain absorbs things in different ways, I find it to be that i cant find anyone that is really like me. I find people i relate to and those people i keep around until the relationship just fades away. I never know why they fade. They just do...maybe its because my mind changes so much and i start viewing people differently.

The U.S is going to war in the next two days. George Bush was on t.v live this evening and I cant believe what an idiot he is. Why would you go on t.v and tell the entire world that you are going to war and when. All he did was strike fear in a lot of peoples hearts. The ones in his own country and he has now let Iraq now when he is going to attack and given them the chance to strike first. Does he honestly think they are going to wait until he says it is time? I dont see the point in this war. You want to save your country, war is not going to do that...not for a while at least. You'll have millions of people die and the blood will be on your hands because you attack.People are saying this is world war 3. I can see that happening. The only good thing i have heard is that Chretien isnt as much of an idiot as i thought he was, at least he is saying that Canada will not go to war. If it does though I am sure Edmonton will be a target. I mean what better place to attack then Alberta, with its oil fields and worlds largest mall? It just sickens me to the very core.

Fading away and listening to Everclear. Thats the way to be.

3:29 a.m. - 2003-03-18