Just a twig

Sorry i havent updated in so long i've been at S's lately and i never go on the internet while i'm there.

I did end up going to see C. but instead of sleeping over at her place i slept over at S's.The whole thing was that a whole group of us went out including amy this chick that i dont like and her friend ally who is also one of S's best friends. While we were there C. was getting pissed off because Amy and Ally were telling her to lie to Stephens mom so that he could go to a movie. Stephen is C. ex boyfriend. Anyways C. was getting pissed off so me and Mallory and her went outside to take a break but then C.was freaking out and wanting to go in and beat the shit out of Amy. So, I had to go in and get kevin so that he could drive us back to c's house.I didnt even bother saying bye to S. because when C. and I went into the bathroom to cool down this lady came in and said that the girls at the table were talking shit about us, which mean ally and amy.While S. sat there not saying anything. I'm sorry but if my friends talk shit about someone i love, i fucking tell them off because of it. I dont care how close my friends are to me, you just dont disrespect people i love. Anyways i went back to C's for a little bit and then Kevin took us to the movies. I phoned S. from there and i wanted to bitch at him for not sticking up for me but instead he said he was pissed at me and then C. got on the phone and he hung up. So we went into the movies and i sat there for a while, upset because S. was mad at me. And after a while i decided to call and apologize. He then told me to meet him at Humpty's, so i walked over there and we barely talked but i did end up going to his house that night. C. was pissed because i had ditched her but i didnt care...she was being annoying. The rest of the time i was at S's house it was pretty good.

When i got home i went to say hi to my step mom and one of the first things she said to me was..."Why are you so skinny?" Then she was saying how i look like a twig and that i need to gain weight. I checked my weight and i'm 115lbs. I'm through with trying to diet but sometimes i cant help but not want to eat because it makes me feel so gross.

Anyways i quit my job at Blockbuster even though i dont have another job yet. I havent told my mom or my step mom though because they would be so pissed off at me...so until i get another job i dont know what i'm going to say. I did drop off an application at Tim Hortons today though so hopefully they phone me back and i get the job.

xoxoxo

Love me

9:36 p.m. - 2003-02-17