Life as is

I start work on Tuesday and before i got the job i was depending on s's mom to let me move in there so i could be close to wherever i worked. The whole thing though is that s's mom hasnt been treating S. very well and theres no reason for her not to. Whenever i'm over there all we do is clean, renovate, sleep for a few hours and eat. The last being only occasionally because whenever we arent cleaning or renovating we are out and about. We basically just go back to sleep at 5 until around 12 and the same routine starts over again. Now on Saturday S's mom asked him to rake the lawn, there was no point in doing so because it was quite windy outside and really not the right day to do yard work. So he refused and she ended up telling him that i had to leave. We left her house at 1:30 in the afternoon and ended up hanging out with friends until around 2 and then going to Humptys all night and most of the next morning. No sleep at all. I had my sandles on and it had started snowing in the middle of the night so obviously i wasnt dressed for the weather. To make matters worse i start work on Tuesday and have no place to live. I'm at my moms right now but i'm not going to be able to stay here long and the only reason i got a job in clareview was because i was hoping his mom would let me live there. Now S. is moving out of there and i have no place to stay at all. *sighs* Life is always so fucking peachy for me. You know its bound to happen to me, me anthings start going right for d then it all fucks up and the circle repeats itself. Its screwing me up so fucking bad because i'm sitting here not knowing what the hell i'm going to do. I fucking hate life so much...I dont know what to do about it though.C. told me that i should ask Stephens mom if i can move in there and honestly to tell you the truth i'm considering doing that. I dont have any other choice really. None of my friends live in clareview and i'm definitely not going to be making enough this first month of work to pay rent to someone. I'm fucking sick of this shit.

11:44 p.m. - 2003-04-27