Life between the lines...hold your head in your hands. Bleed your tears, you're all alone.

How can you be like that

all prissy and cute

I can't understand you

and Bosnia is not a store

I'm sorry that you're sad now

but i think its really dumb

shedding platinum plated tears

because GAP means GAY AND PROUD

And you may think i'm jealous

of your pom poms and your friends

but i know you're friends are fake

and your blue eyes aren't really blue

and maybe i eat my lunch alone

but maybe thats why i'm real

I may not go out every Saturday night

but when i wake up alone

I'm glad

... I went to visit my best friend R. in her group home. It was pretty cool since i haven't seen her in a long time, we were raving about how different we looked from when we last saw each other, and trading our poetry...it was fun to catch up on things... I had to leave early though because one of the kids was becoming really violent and if i got hurt they could be held liable. A. called and we talked for 5 minutes i guess he wasn't sick or dead he just didn't feel like calling...i feel pretty much UN-important to him right now, but thats okay because i'm not so sure i want to be his friend anymore, i swear we have nothing in common and its a wonder we lasted this long.

8:45 p.m. - 2001-09-09