She laughed when there was no joke...she danced when there was no music

I remember you saying that you could picture us ten years from now,sitting on your back porch. Suntanning and chatting about everything on the face of the Earth.You a housewife by then and I the author of best selling novels.Just the same way we were that summer day when we were just 14 year old girls with our heads full of dreams and our hearts full of hope. I never pictured that one of us would die before the age of 16.It was your birthday on the 20th, you would have been 17. You were so amazing.You were an inspiration to just about everyone you met, with the beauty of your soul just radiating through your infectious laugh and smile, all the warmth that flowed through everything you did. The light in my time of darkness and the only person that saw through my fake smiles and still stayed on. When i first found out that you had passed away, all i knew was shock, i didnt believe anyone. Then slowly but finally it sunk in and there was the deepest grief i have ever know. I though i could feel my heart breaking into pieces and i knew that a part of me was gone.It took me months to stop crying every night and still every once in a while i just break down and let it all out.Yet, i have come to the realization that while you are not here anymore, I still have a part of you within me that will never leave.It was your time to go, love, and i find comfort in the fact that while you were here for a short time you lived life to its fullest. You will always be remembered Muffy and I will always be your one and only Dollia.

1:38 p.m. - 2004-01-22