Thinking about you

The one time i make a decision not to see S. he gets mad at me. He wanted to see me and i would have only been there for about an hour before i would have to leave, so i decided to tell him that i would just see him tomorrow. It wouldnt even really be visiting him either because his cousins are there and we wouldnt have alone time and thats what i want. I barely see him now because of my job and his two jobs and the times i have seen him, his cousins have been there. Its understandable because his cousin has been away for a while but i dont want to always be there because sometimes i feel like i ruin the fun. Like last time they wanted to play pool but when we got there minor hour was up and since i'm the only minor there they couldnt go. I dont want to have to make them change plans because i'm not old enough to do shit that they want.

So anyways back to S. being mad,i called him back and he asked me why he should be mad. And then throughout the whole 2 minutes of our conversation he was being really cold.Now i'm in a bad mood. I was talking to this guy Josh that i work with and i was explaining the situation and he was telling me that he understands where i'm coming from and then he asked me if i wanted to go to tony's house with him but i had to decline because i felt it was the right thing to do. I told him i would take a rain check though=) Hes a nice guy and i really wouldnt mind becoming friends with him.

Anyways thats my rant for today.

11:34 p.m. - 2003-05-16