The trick is to keep breathing

You know if you sit still long enough you start to notice things you wouldnt have noticed before. If you stare at something long enough you'll see a whole new part of whatever you were looking at. I want to be able to sit still and just watch you. I want to see you from inside and out. Will you let me in long enough to find out everything i want to see? If you listen to a song over and over it loses all its meaning. If you listen to it one time and listen to every part of the song, the voice...the way it moves up and down...the instruments and how they work their magic. It all seems so much more magnificent. If you ramble one of these days you'll say something important. I miss you S....Your voice...your hands...i miss everything about you. Once a week is not enough.

Christmas Day is tomorrow...i'll be going to S's house after i spend the day with my family. MC is going there which is going to be awesome. I talked to him tonight and we promised that when we saw each other we would say how beautiful we looked and how much we loved each other.Hes such a sweetheart. The best friend a girl could have. I must be off my mom says its bedtime*blah* I love you all.

3:12 a.m. - 2002-12-25