When you're putting the damage on

I have found what i think will be my most listened to band from now until it all ends.Three Days Grace...they remind me of finger11 when i was in grade 9 and through my depression and not wanting to give it up finger was there, now i have this band.

"(I Hate) Everything About You"

everytime we lie awake

after every hit we take

every feeling that i get

but i haven't missed you yet

every room-mate kept awake

by every silent scream we make

all the feelings that i get

but i still don't miss you yet

only when i stop to think about it

i hate everything about you

why do i love you

i hate everything about you

why do i love you

everytime we lie awake

after every hit we take

every feeling that i get

but i haven't missed you yet

only when i stop to think about it

i hate everything about you

why do i love you

i hate everything about you

why do i love you

only when i stop to think about you,

i know

only when you stop to think about me,

do you know

i hate everything about you

why do i love you

you hate everything about me

why do you love me

i hate

you hate

i hate

you love me

i hate everything about you

why do i love you

I've spent the last two weeks at my friend Sasha's house with S.It was fun even though a few times i was put in situations that i found quite uncomfortable, situations that made me sick to my stomach, guilty as sin, and shamed to the very core.I have to say...never again will i let myself do something i dont want to for the sake of having other people happy.I wanted to die, i have never felt so dirty. Slice away the pain pain...turning it inward, turn it outward, are you going to cry little girl?? Do you feel dirty little girl?Because you are, dirty little whore...fuck you over and over.Take it out of my brain, freeze you over. Shhhhh...hes sleeping now.Am i your cocaine? Am i feeding your brain and shocking your system? Are you addicted...are you addicted to me...does your body ache for me? Do you need a hit now? God i need to bleed for you, why wont you let me bleed for you? I want your pain, i want it on my body. I have these scars on the side of my body that showed my love for you and they are fading....when will i get more?

1:47 a.m. - 2003-07-01