will you be the one to rock me to sleep?

Conversations heard from other rooms. Your mouth moving fast as words flow freely from it yet you dont recognize your own voice. Your body slows down, your body speeds up. The chills running down through your entire body feeling as if they are flying through every single vein.Your eyes glazed over, your mind clouded.Chase away the sadness with that look of exquisite tears in your beautiful blue eyes.Tears falling down your silken cheeks as you open your mouth to speak, yet the words dont come out. Theres nothing left to say. Whats done is done. So i will hold your hand until you are strong enough to let it go and i will kiss your cheeks until your tears run dry and i will run my fingers through your hair until the shaking has come to a standstill. And oh darling i will love you until the very end of existance.

STOP

Its only in your dreams alexandria, its only in your wishes full of regrets. The day has come and gone and you could not change it.So go cry yourself back to sleep, its okay...no one can hear as you sob into the early light of day and no one is there to see you rock back and forth in the dark because there is no other way to calm you. You know they dont want to see a girl in pain, you know they will not hold you because the sight of your saddened, tearful eyes has them taking flight.

Muffy+Dollia will live in my heart forever and haunt my dreams as you took my suicide.

I just want someone to rock me to sleep as i let everything out in the form of salted, acidic tears.

1:35 a.m. - 2003-07-04