You think you can get away with it

I got my hair cut today and it look absolutely adorable. Its shorter than i've ever had it before but its perfect. It falls just above my shoulders and i curl it up and its so bouncy=)I'm getting it colored black underneath and red on top soon so its going to look fucking gorgeous.

My plans are fucking up totally for getting away though. My mom is going to be going to Calgary, and thats where i was planning on going, so now i have to leave on wednesday,but i have to leave from millwoods not where i planned on leaving from*Shakes head in fury* Why does everything i plan always seem to fuck up on me? I mean really is it that fucking hard for something to actually turn out the way i wanted it to???!!!??

Nisarg and I still talk and he asked me to come to his house tonite. Hes the sex master guy i talked about before. Anyways i cant leave the house when my mom is home and not tell her where i am going. First of all she would drag my ass back in the house if i even stepped out the door and second i cant risk her putting me somewhere where it would be hard to runaway from. He kept pushing the issue which just made me feel shitty but i dont think he knows. I just wish i had more freedom to do things than i could go see him. I tried to explain that to him but he wasnt listening...it angered me a bit but it made me feel bad more than anything.

So the street performers festival starts on friday. I'll most likely go see that i have nothing else to really do and it should be fun. Now all i have to do is pick one of my friends or someone who wants to go.

Jana is gone=( i dont know where she went but i emailed her after reading her diary, and i feel so horrible. Shes such a sweet person and i dont want her to get hurt. I cried for her and i will until i know she is okay.

I love you Jana...

1:08 a.m. - 2002-07-05