Driving back in from the country i couldn't help but let my eyes drift to the vast amounts of forestry. And let my mind trail to thoughts of just getting out of the vehicle...and walking straight into it. Letting the darkness overwhelm every sense of my being, just get lost. Oh god i just want to be lost.

I woke up this morning after dreaming about you and i felt such a sense of calm. I can't remember what i dreamed though...and that bothers me. I can't seem to let you go. Rid you from my thoughts. What is wrong with me? The clouds and the rain and the chill set the precedent for my mood to be awful but it actually has made me feel...safe. There's a sense of foreboding there...i'm never safe for long.