Thursday, December 30, 2010

The rage subsides in me at all times. I realize i am prone to this aggression. Whether it be nature or nurture or a symptom of both, it is real. It is scary. I have brutally attacked people, i have let my self control go and been blinded completely as i lay down every attack. As vicious as i can be with these words, i am ten times worse with these hands. Towards these men who i have perceived as wronging me. Did i do it because of that wronging or did i do it because of a past that i cannot fully remember or accept? If my mind won't let me in all the way...what horrors lay there?