He shuts his eyes to hear me sing

I didnt get the job at La Senza, they were looking for people with retail experience and thats not me. *sighs* So that got me in an angry mood but luckily S. and I decided to go to a party. We were there for such a short time though...i really didnt want to leave, but while i was there i got myself quite drunk.FUN FUN!!! I've missed drinking so much you wouldnt believe it and the only bad thing about it was that i lost a pack of smokes that i had just gotten that night, not even halfway gone and i lost it! Plus while i was there i got some girls number, she was super friendly which is all fine and good but Dan and S. thought she was a lesbian.If thats true i swear i send off a vibe that attracts lesbians, lol.Thats okay though i dont mind.After the party we went to bostons pizza to chill out and then Dan dropped S. and I off at a motel. I couldnt go to S's house because apparently his mom is mad at me because i dont have a job, which i think is stupid because I am actively looking for one. The job markets are low though, hopefully i get a job by the end of the month though because i'm sick of just hanging out. When i didnt have a job and wasnt in school before it didnt matter because i would always be high. Now the time just crawls. Back on subject though we went to the motel and apparently i kept on passing out inbetween having sex with S. and trying to finish the rest of the drink that S. had made me.

Anyways that was basically the highlight of the weekend. The rest of the weekend all we really did was sleep. I didnt like that at all...especially due to the fact that 3 times when i woke up S. wasnt there. I woke up from bad dreams each time and reached to cuddle with him and he was gone. Maybe i'm just too needy, even when i sleep.

I really want to get drunk again but i told S. that i wouldnt drink without him. He told me that he wasnt going to drink for a while. So alas i have to wait. Hmmm and all i can think of is the rum i have in my backback sitting there and how much i like getting drunk with S.

12:06 a.m. - 2003-04-14