Longed to be a princess but ended up the whore

Longed to be a princess, but ended up the whore

God, i just read jello-chicks diary. I met her a while ago on the net, when she was going out with a guy named M. and she needed some advice.Now i met M, i've talked about him in a previous entry because i went out with him after they broke up. Its so heartbreaking to read her diary when i knew she felt that way and i was still trying to get with her boyfriend, my god i feel terrible.

Its over and all but we still talk to each other, and he still tells me that he loves me and i love him and all that junk. I'm glad that shes gotten over him, but anyways yeah i still feel bad.

Anyways i took an enneagram test and here are the results: I am an 8. My primary intelligence is behavioral, my coping style is reactive, my social style is assertive and my hierarchical style is control. I would be called the powerful, dominating type:Self-confident, decisive, willful and confrontational.

My basic fear: being controlled, or harmed by others.

My basic desire:to protect myself

My key motivations: To be self reliant, to prove my strength and resist weakness, to be important in my world, to dominate the environment and to stay in control of my situation.

This is all too interesting, lol.

Anyways my best friend is having problems, she's in love with this guy and he said he loved her but the thing is that hes said before that he doesn't believe in love and he just told her that, and its all so confusing. I wish i could help and all but i'm not sure what to say since me and this guy arent close so i can't talk to him. Also the things i want to say my best friend wants to also but shes afraid that she might offend him, Goodness, what troubles run amongst the weary sheep.

~She loves him more than he will ever know, and he loves her more than he will ever show.

How heartbreaking. How often this happens, to young creatures. As a teenager, a girl of 15 i feel that love seems to be a thing that is being pushed among us at an early age. In our relationships we are saying i love you and we are committing ourselves to one person and we can't even be sure if what we are feeling is love. Do we as a new generation know anything about love, true love? I mean back in the day you got married to your first love most of the time and you spent your lives with them, nowadays divorce runs rampant, is it because there is no love or is it because there never was love and that back in the day divorce was not available. Perhaps no one can ever be happy, perhaps love is all an illusion that is thrusted upon us. Or maybe we have become so jaded that we don't see love when it is looking us right in the eyes.

6:38 p.m. - 2001-12-02