The only one who really loves me is you

asking too much

ani difranco

i want somebody who sees the pointlessness

and still keeps their purpose in mind

i want somebody who has a tortured soul

some of the time

i want somebody who will either put out for me

or put me out of misery

or maybe just put it all to words

and make me go, you know

i never heard it put that way

make me say, what did you just say?

i want somebody who can hold my interest

hold it and never let it go

someone who can flatten me with a kiss

that hits like a fist

or a sentence, that stops me like a brick wall

if you hear me talking

listen to what i'm not saying

if you hear me playing guitar

listen to what i'm not playing

and don't ask me to put words

to all the silences i wrote

don't ask me to put words

to all the spaces between notes

in fact if you have to ask, forget it

do and you'll regret it

i'm tired of being the interesting one

i'm tired of having fun for two

just lay yourself on the line

and i might lay myself down by you

but don't sit behind your eyes

and wait for me to surprise you

i want somebody who can make me

scream until it's funny

give me a run for my money

i want someone who can

twist me up in knots

tell me, for the woman who has everything

what have you got?

i want someone who's not afraid of me

or anyone else

in other words i want someone

who's not afraid of themself

do you think i'm asking too much?

I went to the art museum with S. today and then we went to go see a movie called the hot chick. The art museum was pretty good although most of the art works in there i would never consider buying, if i had enough money.Its probably only because i'm in love with photography and there was barely in there. I said that i wanted to go to Marvel College, but honestly i'd much rather take a job in photography. Hopefully i'll end up pursuing that. The movie...was hilarious. I like my choice in movies..they always end up being good=)So if you have a chance to go see it you should, its not very mind filling but if you're up for a couple of cheap laughs, that is definitely the movie to see. But the best part of it all was that i got to see S.. It may sound all corny which i probably have sounded in a lot of my entries about him...but hes the only person that can make me feel the way i do. He can break me and he can make me, thats exactly how much control he has. Anyways i think my mom is catching on to the fact that i quit my job. She said to me today that it sounded funny that they didnt put me on the schedule, then she asked me if i had quit. I said no...i'm such a liar. So...i'm calling the Tim Hortons that i left my application at to see if they were interested and then if i get the job i have to ask Andrea if i could stay at her place and pay rent and whatever else she wants done. But first things first...tomorrow i have to go get my birth control shot and set up an appointment to get contacts. I love you all.

xoxoxo

Love me

3:09 a.m. - 2003-02-19