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As i read through this progression of my life, i see time and time again multiple testaments to love. And heartbreak. And sadness and occasionally even joy. I'm a lover, it is not easy to deny. In life i fall. In life i feel. With my entire being. There is a passion in me that will not be denied its pleasure. Even if it almost kills me. And it has been close.

And here is a new beginning. Here is my new start. I am madly in love. I am so deeply in love that i want it all and he has promised me nothing. And that is all a part of his charm. He is kind and he is handsome and he makes me feel...beautiful and whole and cared for and protected. Protected more than i have ever been in the entire history of my life. And it is so beautiful to me, that i dare not write too much right now for fear of jinking it. It is too precious to me. But i am finally perfectly content with my love life.

As for the rest of it, well that comes along with time now doesn't it? I feel as though i am at a standstill. It is either push ahead or be left behind at this interjection. And i just can't seem to push myself that extra little step. But i stay positive and i take glory in the days and the nights where my heart is warmed by the simplest things. Like the gentle breeze through the branches of a tree that is just starting its lifelong journey. The impish grin that spreads across my daughters face when she knows i am pleased with her bragger y. And the way he looks in my eyes and i just cannot look away.

This summer is my start.

10:47 p.m. - 2009-06-02