I'm scared. I would never tell anyone but i think i'm losing control. I can't stand the thought of eating anymore, not even when my stomach is crying out for it. I've lost weight and i know i shouldn't lose more but i can't seem to get myself to eat more. I don't want this sickness, i dont want this disease. I find myself breaking into tears for no reason. I just want to be strong. I want to make it through. I want to be better. It's a pull between mind, heart, and body. I don't know which one is going to win out.

I want to rid myself of my obessions. But i'm scared of who i would be without them.

I bring myself down.

3:47 p.m. - 2007-12-17