i feel like my life is always headed on a downwards spiral. it gets good for a while...sometimes even great and then...shit happens. My mother is angry at me because S's cousin is charging her but none of this is my fault. So why am i always the one who has people mad at them?

S. and I are doing better but at the same time i have to wonder if it will ever be just good. no getting better, no okay...but good. i dont feel like this is a mistake but i dont feel like it is amounting to anything more than its ever been. I have a lot of unresolved resentments towards him and i dont know how to fix them, i dont know who to talk to...i'm just fucking lonely.

5:16 p.m. - 2006-06-12