I rape your emotions for flattery

I've decided to move into my moms house yet again. I guess i miss her a lot and plus i met this girl Diane who is totally awesome and she lives near my mom. Shes exactly like me in personality we even wear our make-up the same way, lol.We're going to hang out this friday or saturday going to the mall and picking up guys and rollerblading around. It should be fun...especially since its with her. I'm going to introduce her to all the bands i love like Bitch and Animal and Melissa Ferrick and Jess Klein and Ani Difranco and then shes going to take pictures of me with her digital camera=) lol it should be great fun.

My sisters birthday was today, shes 12 years old now and i guess its a big deal. i feel bad though because i wasnt being very nice to her but with my sister i can only take her in small doses, she acts like a little boy instead of a little girl and shes really violent...nothing like me at all. I'll make it up to her when i see her next.

I was just looking at all my old poetry books and such...i cant believe i was so depressed and never realized it. I was so young and lost...i guess not much has changed.lol

Anyways i gotta go get some stuff done so i leave you with a poem i wrote in grade 8, the beginning time of my depression.

Nymphet

Touching myself, feeling myself.

I cant get enough of it.

I go on the streets, I grab you by the hands.

Wanting you to understand, I need to fuck you.

All of you watch me, thinking sinful thoughts.

I wont make you pay, I just need to fuck.

I'm better than a prostitute because i am called a slut.

I sleep around and you dont have to pay,

take me down, go down on me, fuck me in every possible way.

Orgasm after orgasm, moan after moan, scream after scream, making you hot.

Its not a job, I just love to fuck,

I fuck to pass the time,

No one ever seems to mind.

Dressed low-key, so no one will know.

Acting just like an innocent little girl.What i actually am is a dirty little whore.

A fucking Nymphet.

Wow, i was one fucked up 13 year old, lol.

10:48 p.m. - 2002-06-23